I still wonder why I lost my childhood to a man that never learned to love. I cherished you and when you came home I was no better than the dirt on the welcome mat. I loved what you were doing and you hated me! Why! I have given you more love in the first five years of my life then you have given me in the forty-one years that I wished I was gone... because of you.

Because of you I no longer look over my shoulder because I don't care. Because of you I learned to hold back when I wanted to go forward. Because of you I don't even trust myself. Because of you heartache allows me to live and misery is my friend. Because of you I am ashamed of my life. You knew I was a wild child but you took that, beat it and stuffed it in a box and it was all because of you. Because of you I am afraid. Life is not worth living BECAUSE OF YOU!

I manage to live my days because of you. Because I love my boys and would do anything for them. Even though life is hard I am stronger and I will be the man it takes to carry on. I will never leave the ones I love. Because of you I will be a man...