I had a few conversations with my boss, Ron, yesterday but only over the phone. I was still very weak from this past week but am starting to get the food to stay down. Ron is willing to help along with several other friends.

However I have to say goodbye to a good friend. I have shared many lonely nights with you. You have been here with me in good times and bad but you are not good for me. You have lured me away from my friends and family while making me feel secure. I will miss you but this is no life for someone that wants to live and be truly happy.

Slowly I am turning away from my old life and this is hard because I have been living this way so long that people don't recognize me when I am sober. I will leave this baggage behind and do my best to live a full life. I know it is easier said than done but I am worth it. I am sorry for anything I have done to hurt anyone else.